Recently I've been feeling a little out of sorts! It's been a very busy couple of months and it's just felt like I haven't had time to just stop. It's become apparent that over the last few months I haven't been spending time with God, I've been filling my time with serving God at various church activities but almost forgetting to include Him in the things I do! It's a little messed up when you think about it, I've been doing all this stuff for God but I've not been doing it with his strength!
During our Sunday morning service at church this week I realised that I have been filling all my spare time with extra things at church because I have forgotten how to spend time in God's presence. It seemed easier to just keep saying yes to various tasks so I could avoid the elephant in the room, however during the service I realised that without spending time with God my fire and passion for doing his work was slowly burning out and I was finding it more of a chore.
I know this isn't what God wants for me, and that he wants me to spend time with Him and to learn from His word! The question I find myself asking is: how can I get back to that place I used to be with God?
I think what has been saying to us as a church is that we need to put less emphasis on filling our time with different agendas but we jus need to wait on Him! We need to jus spend time in his presence, whether that be by reading His word, listening to worship music or having a conversation with Him! I feel at the moment that God is telling me that I need to re-assess who I am in Him and find out what my identity is in Him!
The scary part I now face is facing my fear and learning to spend time with God again and to do this I need to be more disciplined and not just find excuses to avoid it! I'm going to read my bible more often, switch listening to more Christian music and just start enjoying God again!
This is a challenge that I don't set myself lightly and I'm not saying that it's going to be fixed over night, but it's a starting point and a step that I need t take in my Christian walk.
Can also challenge any of you that are feeling like this to just try and spend some time with God he's the willing and waiting for us!
Yes! You go for it Gemma. We are all there behind you (actually - more like with you - because it is something we all need to sort out!!)
ReplyDeletePraying that your God time will be filled with blessings and the assurance that you are loved by HIM :)
It's not just you - I love the fact that you're so open about it - hopefully that will inspire others to open up about it so that we can all help each other fix the problem!
ReplyDeleteOn that note, I definitely have the same problem and can't wait to try and fix it with you and others.
Gemma - you are so not alone! Luke and I regularly have to remind ourselves to clear time to pray and so on and read the bible; it sounds terrible doesn't it, but 'life' just has a tendancy of taking over (and I'm defo guilty of letting it)!! What a lovely honest blog!
ReplyDeleteSam xxx